Maybe You Need Lonely

Everything that is going on in the world is overwhelming. It feels like the world is literally ripping at the seams every single day. There is so much information being thrown in our faces at every turn some days I just want to stay locked in our house and never leave. It is so easy to sit and scroll mindlessly for hours searching for anything to give you the answer or to take you away from here. Reopening my store at the worst time in history to open any store has stirred up so many insecurities within myself it is unreal. I watch as other boutiques continue to succeed and thrive while mine feels like the constant struggle bus that never ends. I see other people model in their clothes and begin to question whether or not I’m skinny or pretty enough to even be doing this. The focus on growing your business social media wise is mentally exhausting and sometimes I get so focused on my lack of growth or likes that somehow that determines if I am a success?! If this was where He was leading me then why would it be this way? All of…

The Price of Love

Grieving, I can honestly admit, I am experiencing for the first time in my life at the age of 32. It’s horrible. I was talking to my therapist the other day and she said something that really stuck with me, “Grief is the price of love.” I have asked myself 8 million times and talked to God, and it all ends up taking me right back to where I am…heartbroken. We knew we had months not days, and I question my decisions; what I would do differently so many times, but in all honesty nothing was ever going to prepare for the loss I experienced. My Poppy was involved in every aspect of my life and not only my life but my kids, my whole life he has been there and to move on without him feels strange, and at times I feel guilty. I started reading the book Option B by Sheryl Sandberg & Adam Grant, and it has been so good for me. She talks about the three Ps in her book : personalization, pervasiveness and permeance. The two that struck a cord with me the most are pervasiveness and permeance. Because my…