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Monthly Archives: April 2020

The Road Ahead

I just started reading in the book of Judges. I never really realized how dark it is. There are a lot of different trials and hard things that have happened so far and I am only about to start Chapter 5. I just got done reading about Barak, well almost done, I know that I will learn some more of him a little later. Just the other day I could see a light at the end of this long tunnel, the economy is slowly trying to start again, we can go out to restaurants, I have never been more excited to be able to get beautiful flowers and plant them in my life.. thanks Mom for going to grab some for me. Then the light fades again as the oil and gas industry took the biggest hit of its life and it affects my family and so many people I know and love. It feels like we are in constant turmoil. Fear is running at an all time high and the unknown seems so scary you almost want to know to just prepare yourself. As I read Barak’s story it reminded me of where we are right now…

His Will Over Yours

Before all this Coronavirus craziness happened I had been praying big prayers, well big prayers for me anyways. I had been praying for God to strengthen my trust in Him, for Him to help me grow more in my faith. Never in my life did I think I would be tested like this so quickly. I have been so angry at God and frustrated. I have sat here questioning myself, did I hear Him correctly?, I know this is what He was pointing me towards but why does everything feel so wrong?! It’s so easy for us when the path gets hard to question God and his goodness. The world we live in offers us a multitude of compromises in our relationship with God, and if we have strayed to far it’s going to be easier for us to give in. I have learned that to live a life according to His will is full of  sacrifices, heartache and fears, but on the other side of that is experiencing a love greater than I ever knew could be possible. There is so much uncertainty ahead for all of us, people losing their jobs, people putting their…