Have you ever seen the movie The Bucket List? I remember watching that movie thinking I couldn’t do something like that. How do you do that knowing what’s waiting for you on the other side? How do you find joy in those moments? Now I am about to have to experience this with someone I love more than anything, and I don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to cherish every moment and soak it in while at the same time my heart is breaking and I am experiencing the most unimaginable pain I have ever dealt with in my life. On one hand I am grateful for this time to be able to cherish everything before we have to say goodbye, but on the other hand my heart is being slowly ripped apart day by day. If there was ever a time that reminds me that God never once promised us an easy life, God never promised not to give us more than we can handle, this season the year 2020 is showing me that. He did promise us to help lessen our load. He did promise to…