It’s ok that it’s not ok!

I am currently in the place of learning that it is ok that it isn’t ok. Life has been throwing some pretty crazy curveballs and life has become heavy. So many around me are going through difficult times, and I am trying to stay positive when my life is crumbling around me. Have you ever had times like these and when you so desperately want to hear from God, but He has never felt further away? I know God was calling me here, but the recipe for disaster for starting and opening a business has unfolded before my eyes and unfortunately it has happened to me. The way I thought everything was going to go is now taking a complete 180 and is changing. The future has never felt more uncertain. I can definitely feel the enemy at work trying to bring all my insecurities to the surface. He absolutely loves times like these when you are overwhelmed, confused, frustrated and even angry with God.

This made me think about Adam and Eve. Their life was perfect enjoying all the goodness the Lord had to offer them; all they weren’t allowed to do was eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. They knew God’s instructions and knew what He had told them, they could literally have everything else in the entire garden just not the one tree, but the enemy had the sly way of convincing them just enough that maybe God really didn’t mean what He said.  “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.” Genesis 3:5. He is so good at tweaking the trust just enough to make you question it. Because of this decision sin entered the world. Satan himself was sent to tempt Jesus, so we are not off the table from being tempted; it’s how we respond to these temptations that grow us in our faith.

God never said that He wouldn’t give us more than we could handle, and He certainly didn’t promise us an easy life.  But, He did say that He would be there to help us through, to help lighten our load not entirely remove it but lighten it.

“For I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.’ ” Isaiah 41:13

Right now it’s ok for you to not be ok, but one thing that will always remain true is that God is ALWAYS good. If the space between you and God feels so far away it hurts, don’t let the quiet turn you away from Him let it deepen your faith. Let it deepen your trust in Him. It’s in the valley that our faith is sharpened. I pray in this time of chaos and uncertainty that you allow God to grow you, to shape you, to strengthen your faith in Him. It is in the valley that your heart is in desperate search for truth, and I can promise you nothing in this world is going to bring you peace like the truth of God. I am going to end this blog with one of my most favorite worship songs, Peace Be Still featuring Lauren Daigle;

” Peace be still, Say the word and I will, Set my feet upon the sea, Till I’m dancing in the deep, Oh peace be still, You are here so it is well, Even when my eyes cant see, I will trust the voice that speaks.”

XOXO