I was listening to the Life. Church Podcast recently with Craig Groeschel, and it was all about chasing fame instead of chasing after the heart of the one who matters most. Today more than ever people want to be known, to be more respected, to have everyone’s approval. Most people in this world are looking for something more. I also think the fear of missing out or the fear of being inadequate plays into this as well. If you accomplish something then that will hopefully lead to the more that you are wanting. The more likes you get on Facebook or Instagram means you are liked or makes you feel more important. Craig asks this question a lot, “Who are you representing?” “The trajectory of fame takes your heart away from God, away from other people and moves towards yourself.” Craig Groeschel. Life.Church Podcast, Part 1. April 28, 2019. I would love to say that what I do always reflects God, but that simply is not true. I would like to say that not getting enough likes on a post has never effected me, but it has. I sought people’s approval…

This past week I went in for a mammogram for some pain I have been having. The mammogram was uncomfortable to say the least but the most unnerving was when they told me I would need a ultrasound that day. My mind immediately began to have all these horrible thoughts and my heart felt like it was beating out of my chest. As I laid alone in the dark ultrasound room I sat there and it made me think of how many people before me had been in here dreading what was to come, and I prayed that that day for me was not happening. My phone was buzzing from my mom and my husband calling me worried, but I couldn’t bring myself to answer because I still didn’t have answers myself. Thankfully everything checked out for now but that Tuesday morning had a big impact on me. Fear is the perfect way for the enemy to creep his way into your thoughts and your heart. He waits for moments like this and reminds you of your greatest fear and makes you hate the unknown. It is so hard to not let that voice become louder…