Recently I bought the book called Emptied by the late Wynter Pitts and her husband Jonathan Pitts. When I bought this in my head I was thinking ok good this book is going to validate me and my feelings. This book is going to show me how I need my husband to do some things better. See these are all the things I have been talking about. Oh how I can imagine God laughing at me knowing what was waiting for me when I opened this book. Lately life has gotten crazy. I mean we have three kids and each of their different schedules it can make life pretty stressful at times. Not even throwing in all their sporting activities. His crazy call schedule and I have a list of things I am doing that run a mile long. It is so easy to let these things in life overwhelm you and you suddenly sit and realize that you and your spouse have not had a date night since who knows when. That you have been talking so much kid talk that you haven’t spent true time with each other. Its easy when this happens to start focusing…
Lately there have been so many hard deaths to have to deal with. The latest one was one of the hard ones, the one where I struggle and try to grasp at anything to tell me why. Why did this have to happen? I just do not understand. I want to understand so that the loss won’t sting as much. To see people you love have to endure so much pain is gut wrenching. I had a restless sleep last night because I just couldn’t quit thinking. It is hard to know that we will never fully understand because we were not made to. Things like this that happen test our faith in so many ways. It disrupts the peace within our hearts. Beloved, do not be surprised that a trial by fire is occurring among you, as if something strange were happening to you. But rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that when His glory is revealed you may also rejoice exultantly. 1 Peter 4: 12-13 The Catholic Bible, Personal Study Edition. Oxford University Press, 2007. Trusting in the unknown is hard at times because God has…