Have you ever seen the movie The Bucket List? I remember watching that movie thinking I couldn’t do something like that. How do you do that knowing what’s waiting for you on the other side? How do you find joy in those moments? Now I am about to have to experience this with someone I love more than anything, and I don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to cherish every moment and soak it in while at the same time my heart is breaking and I am experiencing the most unimaginable pain I have ever dealt with in my life. On one hand I am grateful for this time to be able to cherish everything before we have to say goodbye, but on the other hand my heart is being slowly ripped apart day by day. If there was ever a time that reminds me that God never once promised us an easy life, God never promised not to give us more than we can handle, this season the year 2020 is showing me that. He did promise us to help lessen our load. He did promise to…
I just started reading in the book of Judges. I never really realized how dark it is. There are a lot of different trials and hard things that have happened so far and I am only about to start Chapter 5. I just got done reading about Barak, well almost done, I know that I will learn some more of him a little later. Just the other day I could see a light at the end of this long tunnel, the economy is slowly trying to start again, we can go out to restaurants, I have never been more excited to be able to get beautiful flowers and plant them in my life.. thanks Mom for going to grab some for me. Then the light fades again as the oil and gas industry took the biggest hit of its life and it affects my family and so many people I know and love. It feels like we are in constant turmoil. Fear is running at an all time high and the unknown seems so scary you almost want to know to just prepare yourself. As I read Barak’s story it reminded me of where we are right now…