Before all this Coronavirus craziness happened I had been praying big prayers, well big prayers for me anyways. I had been praying for God to strengthen my trust in Him, for Him to help me grow more in my faith. Never in my life did I think I would be tested like this so quickly. I have been so angry at God and frustrated. I have sat here questioning myself, did I hear Him correctly?, I know this is what He was pointing me towards but why does everything feel so wrong?! It’s so easy for us when the path gets hard to question God and his goodness. The world we live in offers us a multitude of compromises in our relationship with God, and if we have strayed to far it’s going to be easier for us to give in. I have learned that to live a life according to His will is full of sacrifices, heartache and fears, but on the other side of that is experiencing a love greater than I ever knew could be possible. There is so much uncertainty ahead for all of us, people losing their jobs, people putting their…
I am currently in the place of learning that it is ok that it isn’t ok. Life has been throwing some pretty crazy curveballs and life has become heavy. So many around me are going through difficult times, and I am trying to stay positive when my life is crumbling around me. Have you ever had times like these and when you so desperately want to hear from God, but He has never felt further away? I know God was calling me here, but the recipe for disaster for starting and opening a business has unfolded before my eyes and unfortunately it has happened to me. The way I thought everything was going to go is now taking a complete 180 and is changing. The future has never felt more uncertain. I can definitely feel the enemy at work trying to bring all my insecurities to the surface. He absolutely loves times like these when you are overwhelmed, confused, frustrated and even angry with God. This made me think about Adam and Eve. Their life was perfect enjoying all the goodness the Lord had to offer them; all they weren’t allowed to do was eat from…