Seasonal

There is nothing like 2 full weeks of Christmas break to make you ready for the routine to kick back in. Lately I have been finding myself itching for something more. Searching for something for me again. After staying home for the past 8 years I reach times where I feel lost and lonely. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. There will be times when I sit here and think, “Is this really all I have done with my life?” These girls are my pride and joy, but at times it feels like I just give and give until all the life has been sucked out of me. It is so hard to see other moms striving and thriving all while you feel like you are sitting still.

This is one of the things that I hate about social media, because what you see isn’t always real life. Some people really aren’t thriving but they can portray so well. When I was listening to one of Rachel Hollis’ podcasts the other day she said, “Don’t compare your start to my middle.” This hit me hard. Some of these women have been busting it for years and are starting to thrive so why let myself feel inadequate when we are no where close to the same starting place. Social media gets so grey when it comes to what is really going on in someone else’s journey. This is when the enemy uses these opportunities to pounce into our minds and our hearts and reminds us of the things that make us feel like we are not good enough. How come we allow one post to make us come so unraveled? Why do we let Satan’s voice become louder and more important that God’s?

This is one of the reasons I love social media because of women like this. I became reassured that I am not the only mom who feels this way when I found a sweet mom on Instagram, Matti Gresham; if you don’t follow her, you need to because she is so uplifting and funny. She posted a video series about this same thing and it was so reassuring to me and comforting to me that I am not alone in feeling this way. She talked about being in seasons where God is preparing us for what lies ahead. She talked about the same feelings I was having like I am not successful enough where I am. The feeling that I need to be doing more. The feelings of contentment begin to be questioned. These thoughts that we are believing are lies from the enemy. We are being held hostage to comparison, which is the biggest thief of joy and contentment. If we cannot put our trust and faith in our creator like we do to these lies, we will never be enough. I consistently struggle with feeling like I am not good enough, I need to be more successful, I could lose a few pounds and I would be pretty like her etc. The more I continue to do this the more I continue to tell God that he is not trustworthy, that what He created isn’t good enough.

I really encourage you to listen to the mastermind series podcast with Craig Groeschel, it was so encouraging and really helps you think and pray for the way you look at things. I pray that you realize where your truth comes from and that you are always good enough no matter what this world says. If other moms are striving, be happy for them that their faithfulness has paid off. There are still going to be hard days but if the doors aren’t opening when you are wanting to there is a reason. It will come when the time is right. Trust me when I say I struggle with this so much. I have been having a hard time with patience and I have been praying for doors to open for awhile but they still aren’t there. This is when your faith is tested, and if we can be faithful when the time is right everything will be more fruitful than you can ever imagine. Stay true to your course not to anyone else’s. No one else gets to have the same journey and each journey has a purpose and that is what makes life beautiful.

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap harvest if we do not give up.- Galatians 6:9