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The Set Back

For those of you who have followed my story know that I have struggled with an eating disorder. If you haven’t heard my story I wrote a blog about my journey which is titled Shattered, so you can go back and read it. Towards the end of summer I started to feel really convicted about me being obsessed with my body. I would sit in the mirror and critique myself on how all the ways I look disgusting and awful. I am too fat, I have too much cellulite, my mom pooch is sticking out, etc. I would see someone on Instagram or Facebook that would instantly make me degrade myself in a bikini. I would make myself get up go to the gym to workout at 5:30 so that I made sure and made time to get my workout in before anything else. I was going backwards and not forwards with how I chose to see myself and my body. You see there is one problem with this, what I was doing with my body wasn’t honoring God, it was dishonoring Him. Instead of me investing in my time with Him I was investing…

Shattered

It started when I was 14 years old. I was seeking attention and approval from boys, for them to be the ones who made me feel like I was enough. When I was in junior high and even into high school I was not the prettiest one, or the most popular; I had plenty of friends like that, but it was not me. I can remember trying to buy short skirts, coloring my hair because maybe if I was blonde they would be more into me, and trying to like things I wasn’t necessarily into just to fit in. I smiled, laughed and I was friends with a variety of people, but the internal turmoil that I dealt with all through these years was so hard. Truth be told all these years later I can remember struggling so hard to just be wanted to be prettier, to be skinner, and it’s so painful to think about. “We will never be enough for this world because that’s not what God created us for”- Grace Valentine- Am I Enough I was 17 years old when I fell in love for the first time, and…