Lately there have been so many hard deaths to have to deal with. The latest one was one of the hard ones, the one where I struggle and try to grasp at anything to tell me why. Why did this have to happen? I just do not understand. I want to understand so that the loss won’t sting as much. To see people you love have to endure so much pain is gut wrenching. I had a restless sleep last night because I just couldn’t quit thinking. It is hard to know that we will never fully understand because we were not made to. Things like this that happen test our faith in so many ways. It disrupts the peace within our hearts. Beloved, do not be surprised that a trial by fire is occurring among you, as if something strange were happening to you. But rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that when His glory is revealed you may also rejoice exultantly. 1 Peter 4: 12-13 The Catholic Bible, Personal Study Edition. Oxford University Press, 2007. Trusting in the unknown is hard at times because God has…