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The Set Back

For those of you who have followed my story know that I have struggled with an eating disorder. If you haven’t heard my story I wrote a blog about my journey which is titled Shattered, so you can go back and read it. Towards the end of summer I started to feel really convicted about me being obsessed with my body. I would sit in the mirror and critique myself on how all the ways I look disgusting and awful. I am too fat, I have too much cellulite, my mom pooch is sticking out, etc. I would see someone on Instagram or Facebook that would instantly make me degrade myself in a bikini. I would make myself get up go to the gym to workout at 5:30 so that I made sure and made time to get my workout in before anything else. I was going backwards and not forwards with how I chose to see myself and my body. You see there is one problem with this, what I was doing with my body wasn’t honoring God, it was dishonoring Him. Instead of me investing in my time with Him I was investing…

Rattled

Have you ever heard the saying that God will not give you more than you can handle? I have heard it most of my life. But here lately after listening to a couple podcasts, the most recent is Girls Night with Stephanie May Wilson, they made me question it and realize that is not necessarily true. They talk about how it doesn’t specifically say that anywhere in the Bible and there are many times and seasons that we are in that it is more than we can handle but we have Him to get us through. This gave me a whole new perspective. I have had a lot on the plate and juggling it all has been hard, but lately with my first flight in twelve years upon me my anxiety and fears have been at an all time high. For some of you its worse things and you are facing fears of cancer, death of a family member, loss of a job, something that is way beyond what you can handle. In my situation I can feel my fears becoming more present than my faith and maybe for some of you that is what is happening as…