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The False Race

This morning as I was doing my bible study I knew immediately that God put this in my path for a reason. For now I am going through a season in motherhood where I am struggling finding my meaning, my purpose, and it is such a hard struggle and I think even more so when you are a stay at home mom. I have struggled with this off and on during my eight years of staying home with a couple more years to go and it can feel like you are going nowhere. These feelings of loneliness and of being unworthy creep in when you least expect it. I am writing this because I am convinced that I am not the only other stay at home mom that feels this way. In the bible study, First Be A Follower, which is created by my most favorite author Hannah Brencher, one of the first few things I read of her hope for people doing this study was, “That we give up the false race of “getting there” to learn how to be here now.” In my personal journey as a stay at home mom I always feel…

Seasonal

There is nothing like 2 full weeks of Christmas break to make you ready for the routine to kick back in. Lately I have been finding myself itching for something more. Searching for something for me again. After staying home for the past 8 years I reach times where I feel lost and lonely. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. There will be times when I sit here and think, “Is this really all I have done with my life?” These girls are my pride and joy, but at times it feels like I just give and give until all the life has been sucked out of me. It is so hard to see other moms striving and thriving all while you feel like you are sitting still. This is one of the things that I hate about social media, because what you see isn’t always real life. Some people really aren’t thriving but they can portray so well. When I was listening to one of Rachel Hollis’ podcasts the other day she said, “Don’t compare your start to my middle.” This hit me…