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Maybe You Need Lonely

Everything that is going on in the world is overwhelming. It feels like the world is literally ripping at the seams every single day. There is so much information being thrown in our faces at every turn some days I just want to stay locked in our house and never leave. It is so easy to sit and scroll mindlessly for hours searching for anything to give you the answer or to take you away from here. Reopening my store at the worst time in history to open any store has stirred up so many insecurities within myself it is unreal. I watch as other boutiques continue to succeed and thrive while mine feels like the constant struggle bus that never ends. I see other people model in their clothes and begin to question whether or not I’m skinny or pretty enough to even be doing this. The focus on growing your business social media wise is mentally exhausting and sometimes I get so focused on my lack of growth or likes that somehow that determines if I am a success?! If this was where He was leading me then why would it be this way? All of…

Sucker Punch

Have you ever seen the movie The Bucket List? I remember watching that movie thinking I couldn’t do something like that. How do you do that knowing what’s waiting for you on the other side? How do you find joy in those moments? Now I am about to have to experience this with someone I love more than anything, and I don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to cherish every moment and soak it in while at the same time my heart is breaking and I am experiencing the most unimaginable pain I have ever dealt with in my life. On one hand I am grateful for this time to be able to cherish everything before we have to say goodbye, but on the other hand my heart is being slowly ripped apart day by day. If there was ever a time that reminds me that God never once promised us an easy life, God never promised not to give us more than we can handle, this season the year 2020 is showing me that. He did promise us to help lessen our load. He did promise to…